I am vain

Assalamualaikum wbt.

I’m not so in mood to update my blog lately. Sorry.

My sinus seriously make me annoyed. I had a bad flu today and i really hate it :(

I can be strong!

"Cry as hard as you want to...But always make sure, when you stop crying, you'll never cry for the same reason again."

This kind of feeling

Asssalamualaikum wbt.

First of all I want to congratulate to all my friends whose got 4 flats for their pspm 1. Congratulations (!)

Alhamdulillah I've already got my result for the pspm exam, I’m grateful with what I’ve get. I have to be grateful.

Because I believe in myself that I’ve done the best, even though it didn’t achieve with what I target for.

But I’m kindda bit sad...

How should I describe this kind of emotion...

I don’t feel like wanna talk to anybody...

Oh Allah! please give me some strength. Tears please don’t fall down, I don’t want to show how do I feel right now in front of my peers.

Based on my result what should I do now? Should I move out from this college and start from diploma?....

To my beloved Omma,

" I'm so sorry that I cant do well in this exam, how can I be so careless. But I've done my best during the exam. My result may not make you happy. Thank you for praying on my studies, so I can get good result, spending lots of money for my studies and taking good care for me. But it seems that I've disappointed you, I'm really really sorry! I didn't mean it :'( "

Wanita

Berhati-hatilah jika kamu membuatkan seorang wanita menangis, kerana Allah (swt) mengira air matanya. Wanita datang dari tulang rusuk lelaki, tidak dari kakinya untuk berjalan di atasnya, bukan dari kepalanya untuk menjadi lebih degil, tetapi dari sisinya untuk menjadi sama, di bawah lengan untuk dilindungi dan di sebelah sisi hatinya untuk disayangi.

Depressed :/

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Kadang-kadang rasa macam nak give up je amik account subjects

rase macam nak menangis bile buat account ni.

Bile kite nak tanye orang pulak die orang semua pon macam tak nak membantu kite

This make me feel like I wanna give up

Why did I took this subject actually?

I also don't get the point why I can be so strong taking this subject

My friends are all so brilliant in account, I feel a bit embarrassed being around them.

Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be here with such a smart and brilliant people.

I am not the same grade as them as smartest as them. I am just me who doesn’t know how to do anything in account subject. I feel so stupid sometimes. I always get the lowest marks in the class. I try to find someone to guide me in this subject, but they seems to busy with their life. Maybe I should stay focus and study hard during the lecture. I have to push on with this subject (!) I want to be smart like my classmates. They are all like the smartest person in the college. I’ve always been jealous of someone who knows to do everything in account. How I wish I had the smartest brain like them and how I wish I can be like them...

Scared :(

Assalamualaikum wbt.

I've been a walking heartache, counting on days until the result are about to come out. It's really make me feel like freaking scared. I have to get ready in mentally and physically.

3 days more to go, the result will ensure us whether we can continue our studies here or we will be kick out from this college. It make me nervous. I really don’t think that I can make during the exam.

I hope that I won’t be kick out from the college, my parents put so on so much hope on me. I pray that my result will success with flying colours. I hope so.

Some rumors said that there will be 25 accounts student will be kick out from the college, I’m so afraid if I am one of those candidates that will be kick out. But Madam Juji said that it just a rumors and not to believe with all the rumors. Because the College director will go to Putrajaya to take the result on these Monday and on the evening the examiners unit will do surveys on the results and so on. Then on the next day on 3 pm we will took the result at the Seri Kinta Hall.

I really sure there will be various kind of feeling in each students, including me. There will be moody, happy and speechless feeling for sure (!)

I wish that my result will turn out okay. Ameen, Insya-Allah.

Whatever my result may look like, I redha with the fate. Since I know that I've do the best during exam. I've to put on smiles on me no matter what happen. Jia you (!)

Change is a must!

Assalamualaikum wbt.

I was thinking that this article might be usefull to share in my blog. I hope that you'll enjoy reading it. Have a good day :)

“I’ve changed. What about you?” says the butterfly
Picture by *iskandar of flickr.com

This is the time of the year when everybody talks about Hijrah.

Sweet talks yeah.

Lectures about Hijrah are flooding at mosques, on television, radios and even at your home with your family.

People are amused with these lectures. They feel entertained after hearing the story behind Hijrah.

“What a GREAT event!” They say in their hearts.

But all that feeling of greatness lasts only for an hour or two or less than that. Once they walk away to their homes, their just the same old person they were before. No change at all.

How many years have we lived?

How many times have we gone through Ma’al Hijrah?

Have we changed to a better person?

Talks are sweet to hear

We love to hear good things but we do not want to push ourselves to apply what we have heard.

We love to say good things but we fail love others.

We do not hold the concept of actions speak louder than words in our hearts.

What are left of our deeds are only words that do not exist in actions?

Hijrah is not merely an occasion but it is an example for us to follow.

Narrated ‘Umar:

I heard the Prophet saying, “The reward of deeds depends on the intentions, so whoever emigrated for the worldly benefits or to marry a woman, his emigration was for that for which he emigrated, but whoever emigrated for the Sake of Allah and His Apostle, his emigration is for Allah and His Apostle.” [1]

Change is a must!

Do you know why bad things always happen here and there? It is because of what we have done in this world. It is because we do not want to change! No denial.

Allah has said in His book so that we realize and take warning:

whatever misfortune happens to you, is because on the things your hands have wrought, and for many (of them) He grants Forgiveness.[2]

He also said:

whatever good, (o man!) happens to thee, is from Allah. but whatever evil happens to thee, is from Thy (own) soul. and we have sent Thee As an apostle to (instruct) mankind. and Enough is Allah for a witness.[3]

Conclusion: CHANGE!

Allah can change you but first you have to change yourself:

for Each (Such person) there are (angels) In succession, before and behind him: They guard Him by command of Allah. Verily never will Allah change the condition of a people until They change it themselves (with their own souls). but when (once) Allah willeth a people’s punishment, there can be no turning it back, nor will They find, besides him, any to protect.[4]

Let us change! Let us become better!
Salaam Ma’al Hijrah ^_^

Sources: Langit Ilahi