Depressed :/

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Kadang-kadang rasa macam nak give up je amik account subjects

rase macam nak menangis bile buat account ni.

Bile kite nak tanye orang pulak die orang semua pon macam tak nak membantu kite

This make me feel like I wanna give up

Why did I took this subject actually?

I also don't get the point why I can be so strong taking this subject

My friends are all so brilliant in account, I feel a bit embarrassed being around them.

Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be here with such a smart and brilliant people.

I am not the same grade as them as smartest as them. I am just me who doesn’t know how to do anything in account subject. I feel so stupid sometimes. I always get the lowest marks in the class. I try to find someone to guide me in this subject, but they seems to busy with their life. Maybe I should stay focus and study hard during the lecture. I have to push on with this subject (!) I want to be smart like my classmates. They are all like the smartest person in the college. I’ve always been jealous of someone who knows to do everything in account. How I wish I had the smartest brain like them and how I wish I can be like them...